Ladies I really need your help and advice?

my girlfriend wrote this to me: i really dont know how 2 explain this but i wanna get this off my chest. wen we 1st started going out together i really didnt want to be around you, talk to you, or none of that. i just wanted sumbody more like anybody 2 love me thats why i said yea to you when you asked me out. babe i got on mi knees and prayed for you and i still didnt appreciate the love you had for me. i abused it, i was looking for love in ALL the WRONG places and i cheated on u. but wen u cheated on me that hurt me badly and i wanted 2 kill you and that girl but i got over it n i forgave u. when i broke up with u the second time i couldnt get ova it, i REALLI didnt fall n love with you until April n from there on i fell real deeply in love with u. wen u proposed 2 me i didnt know what 2 say i was so ova whelmed that someone would actually proposed 2 me.[but i know you would make a GREAT husband] a thousand tongues couldnt tell u how much u mean 2 me rite now. you are a breath taken from Gods heart for me. your my smile, my hands when i say my grace,my heart, you are my everything.


But this doesnt sound truely from the heart, to me it sounds like sumthin she threw together really quick juss to make me feel special, she told me dat she didnt like it at all so i told her to juss take her time and re do it but she said dat takes to long


So wat i really wanna kno is why she is acting like dis towards me? and what should i do to help her open up and express her real feelings towards meLadies I really need your help and advice?
You didn`t say if she excepted your proposal. It seems to me that you two have had some rough times but as she is saying she loves youLadies I really need your help and advice?
at least you got a girl whos nice...even a warm cashmere dress wont defrost my girl's heart